This is the best thing

Sorry I haven't been on in a while, I've opened numerous boxes to write new posts....just don't have much to say. Hmm...well lets see, I'm about to go to school (yuck) and take a biology test but I'm really not that nervous. I just want today to be over though, I'm so bored with school. I gotta get back on track. I have to clean my room, which always throws me off, and do my homework RIGHT when I get home unless otherwise forced. I'm so glad NHD is going to be over soon. Its just getting so difficult, with all the clay I have to do which isn't going well. I have to get uncle sam done before Wednesday. Its manditory. Otherwise, they'll have to live without a little clay army next saturday. I am so disorganized lately because my folder fell apart and papers are ALL over the place. Oh, and Mr. Caliendo asked me to help him out at parent teacher conferences on march......12th, i think, so that should be fun. He is definantly my favorite teacher this year.

Oh, in other news, (yes I know the risks) I got a myspace finally. I know how it can be bad, but you can be safe about it. ALl of my friends had them and its pretty fun i have to admit. Besides, according to myspace I'm fifty two years old and live in.....west milford new jersey. :) So no worries. But its fun to be able to finally have an answer when people ask for my myspace. I can be popular!!! Haha.

<3s and Hugs and prayers for my sisters!

Life today

Okay, so first off, politics. Oh my goodness. Is it just me, or is Hillary getting ridiculous? If you're a Hillary fan I'm sorry, please leave your opinions if you so wish (in a nice manor, it'd be appreciated) But really, between "Shame on You" and "The skies will open" I just don't understand why people would vote for her. She started off well, she had some decent ideas, but now she's just desperate. Obama's winning and her (and her husband...I still think he just wants to relive his glory days) know it. They'll knock his campaign in as many ways possible. I want to say "okay and if thats how you handle things you don't like, stand up and bash them, then why do I want you as president? Is that what your going to do when a political power from another country says something you don't like?" Its immature. It shows nothing but weakness.

In other issues....I'm a happy person! :) I have awesome friends, good grades (I think), and as always a great family. Chris came over last night and we watched "The Guardian" with my parents. Thats an awesome movie. Oh and I made him go through Seventeen Magazine and rate girls, that was pretty funny. It was a really good night though, esspecially when me and mom broke into "Master Of The House" from Les Miserables and he didn't run away! Haha if that didn't scare him away I don't think anything will. But he hasn't met my sisters yet.....


Anyways, homework to do and lessons later and clay later and food to eat....wait, what do you mean there are only seven stinkin' hours left?????

Jammies and Books

This is why I love snowdays. And why I force myself to do all of my gruling homework the night before even if I know that there will be a snowday. Because now, I slept until eleven, I woke up and squashed any plans for National History day because of the horrible road conditions and lack of things to do that counld be done individually, like the eight clay people I have to make. My little clay political cartoon army. So we all promised to do things on our own time, we all have a job, and we're going with it. Its better this way, in my opinion, because I feel like I need a chill day and besides we'll get just as much, if not more done for the NHD occasion in (gasp) two weeks. Other then the time I spend sitting at the coffee table working clay magic (haha) and watching TV I'll be reading, cleaning my room (something I actually enjoy at times), possibly some Buffy or Kyle XY, and probably some phone conversations later on. I'll eventually go outside, I made that promise, cause its so pretty and I haven't spent enough snow time this year. Maybe a walk, maybe some genuine five-year-0ld fun, who knows. Anyway, I'll be warm and cozy with hot chocolate afterwards, and I just can't wait to make this a comfy all nighter of no responsibilites and lots of relaxing.

Snap Crackle Pop

Pops concert tonight at seven o'clock. All are welcome, so you know. Its not the last concert of the year...in fact I think there are two more...so no worries if you can't make it. They'll be moer oppertunities for you to see us suck do our best.

Really though, its worth seeing. Meisters is going to be fine, I'm fairly confident, but concert band....hmmmm....not so positive. Could go well. Could go really bad. Lets keep our fingers crossed. :)

Thats all for now, I'm off to school.

Is anyone else really tired today, or is it just me?

I love this crazy tragic sometimes almost magic awful beautiful life

I'm alittle stressed. Today, I have alot to do in school, in classes and in between, along with band and meisters dress reherals on stage fith period, seventh period and after school. I have alot of homework already and I haven't even gotten today's yet (my teachers are on a pretty big homework kick right now) and I have to re-take that math test tonight too. Tomorrow isn't going to get any better, cause I have to actually be IN the concert. Anyone who's been in one knows what I'm talking about when I say it doesn't matter how involved you are in it (though I'm fairly involved) or what music your singing/playing, its really exhausting. Just totally full body exhausting. Oh, and I have to make eight clay people in...two weeks. For National History Day which I can't even attend because I have to sing at my Grandfather's 80th birthday party for family and friends, some from out of state and everything. Even better, I have no clue what I'm singing. Not a clue. Oh, and I have NYSSMA solos soon too, no idea what I'm singing for that one. Thanks for chosing an oppertune time to get sick Hanson. And now I'm supposed to leave in twenty nine minutes....which means take the towel out of my hair, do some form of make-up, something with my hair, and throw on socks. Forget food. Who needs food?! Not me.
Sheesh!

Keep the lights on

So, theres this show, and its awesome. Amazing. Really a show that is honest to what life is like. The characters are believeable, and very relatable. The stories are life like, and intense. It can literally make your emotions change, and help you see who you are. So please people, this is good TV, don't threaten me with taking it off the air! What are you going to replace it with?! "My Dad Is Better Then Your Dad"? No thanks, I'll read a book.




Theres not that many worthwhile shows out there anymore.

Prolonging The Inevitable

So, yesterday was Valentines day. For all the curious, yes he asked me out. It was adorable. I'm very happy. But...if you really want to know lots, you'll have to find me in person. :p

In other aspects of life, I'm pretty content. I have awesome friends, I really do. I love my friends so flippin much!! Caitlin is is florida this week, I'm very jealous. She keeps texting me about how she's in Magic Kingdom and such. But she promised me to bring me back a stuffed eeyore so I'm happy. I spent the day with Mom in the mall, getting highlights and my third hole in my ears. And getting a cute shirt for tomorrow, which i totally love. Its pink, a rare occurance for me, but its definatly not In-Your-Face cause i reverted back to my favorite color...grey haha...to tone it down. Definatly laid back and appropriate enough for Valentines day dinner at my church with my boyfriend (hehe its offical!). So, I'm excited. It should be alot of fun...minus the whole cooking/touching other peoples food. Eww! I'll never be a good waitress.....hrumph.

The biggest news of the day would be Grandpa's broken ankle. Not to worry, its really not a big deal. In fact, the story that Grandpa and Uncle Richard tell about how it happened is hilarious. See, with all the ice, Grandpa decided that to be involved he'd move the cars so Uncle Richard could shovel. Apparently Uncle Richard started out shoveling wrong...something about rocks into the garden...but it resulted in the usual comical arguement between the grumpy old man who takes issue with the little things and the stubborn hard-of-hearing middle aged man who takes far too much pleasure and humor out of the grumpy old man's issues. Don't get my wrong, I love them both more then anything in the world, and Grandpa isn't really that grumpy, but he definatly has old man traits, like from a sitcom. So anyway they ended up making half-hearted nasty comments and flipping each other off with the bird. Great, right? So Grandpa turned around and Uncle Richard said watch the ice and bang he fell. Oh, wait, it gets better. See, Uncle Richard didn't hear him yelling at first. And when he finally did he had to take Grandpa's arms and pull him across teh driveway on his but until they got to a patch rough enough that they could get him up. I can just picture it. Easy winner of America' Funniest Home Videos. Now Grandpa is sitting at home being stubbornly indepentdant and lugging around a chunky hard cast that I decorated with Giant's Logos. I know, I'm just grandaughter of the year. :)
Anyway, just wanted to share one of the many quirky reasons why I absolutly LOVE my family.

16 visits! Woo-Hoo!!

Thats right, be jealous. 16 whole people...different people.....visited my blog yesterday. Someone even came after searching on google! Using some...google thing I can see how many visitors I get a day, how much time they spend here, and what country they're from. Its awesome. Sadly, no visitors from other countries yet, but I'm really hoping to change that. I honestly don't have a plan...maybe they'll just come to me. But please, if your new, or even if you've been a regular, comment! It would mean so much.

Anyways, today is Valentines day. In case you didn't remember. A highly commercial holiday, I'm fully aware. But I'm not playing into that this year. Next year, chances are it will be a big deal for me, but this year, it'll just be a nice, relaxed day that I've been waiting for for a long time. I'll blog later, to keep you guys updated.

Lets see...on the more pesimistic front, today is a two hour delay. Something I really love finding out about after I'm up and showered and awake. But hey, gives me time to keep you guys posted, and have a nice traditional valentines day breakfast of choclates and cards and teddy bears with my family. And make myself look pretty. :). Oh, and I have this realllyyyy bad average in Math, which is totally killing me, and I had a make-up test to take that could change my average. Last week Mr.Mark says "Come to me towards the end of next week and I'll make up the test" Okay, thats great, so since its a four day week I figured I'd talk to him...Wednesday. Shoot. That was yesterday, the snowday. So now I'm like panicing, because its a two hour delay which means short periods which means I couldn't take the test during them, so that would be staying after which I can only do if he can do...oh, and did i mention, i forgot to study. Hehe. Woops.

Snow Day Ponderings

So...its a snow day....woo hooo.....

Okay I'm really bored. I don't feel like I usually do on snow days....happy, wanting it to last forever, blah blah blah.
I mean, I do...I don't want to be in school or anything...but at the same time...
I guess its alot of things. For one, I didn't finish my homework. Not because I forgot or didn't want to, but because I can't. I don't understand the french, I did the math to the point that I got it well, and there wasn't any other homework.
Maybe another part is that tomorrow is Valentines day.
I just...hmmm....oh valentines day. So many things I could say. Not enough time in my life or yours to say them. I'll let you know how it goes tomorrow I suppose.

If you get the chance, check out the comments following chris's latest blog post. It'll definatly make you laugh.

I think this world is far too full of lies. Little lies. Lies that you don't even realize you tell on a daily basis. So what if it doesn't make a difference? The human condition is taking its toll. We've actually convinced ourselves its okay to lie if the situation is small enough. Yes, sometimes, lies are an okay thing, like the whole "keep your thoughts to yourself" or "surprise" thing. But...its such a web. Theres not an ounce of trust in the world for people anymore, and with good reason. I just can't stand lies. Watching TV, people attack people all about lies. Who lied when, where, how many times...its ridiculous. And frustrating. Why don't we just all stay home and make up our lives? We don't even need to worry about interaction anymore. Lets just make the whole flippin thing up.

Anyway, thats my rant for today. Oh by the way I put a really good Relient K song in on my blog...its right on the right there...so if you feel like it, listen to it, its definatly accurate.

100th post!!!!

Its my hundredth post i'm so excited! haha.
So church this sunday was amazing. Want to know why? Cause Chris kissed me.
And man was I missing out. He's such a good kisser haha. But if my sisters really want to know they'll call or comment or w.e. I'm not going to go into tooo many girly details but it was like perfect. Perfect perfect.

Anyway....In other aspects of life not alot is going on. Me and my friends are....mediocre. Some better then others. I'm really getting over the past couple of months....kinda feeling like i need to look at who I am without other people, you know? Like who am I, what do I feel, and where do i stand, when I'm not being influenced by other people. Because I think on a personal level all these issues have made me really loose alot of things that I knew about myself, and self-esteem and stuff. I really dont' think I'm like a bad person or anything, I just want to get...re-settled into myself. If that makes any sense.

So how's life?

Just thinking...

I don't think I'm going to audition for all county. I think its just too much. I dont' know the peice well enough, its alot of time to put into something that I didnt' even want to sign up for in the first place, and I have a really busy weekend. Not to mention march, when its going to happen, is going to be really busy as well. So I don't think its worth it. I feel bad, I never give up on things, but everyone always tells me I take on too much...maybe they're right. So as of now I'm ninety percent decided.

Guess what! Chris got a blog. You guys should all go read it now haha. (esspecially those pesky sisters of mine who are always too curious). Its Livin' Our Love Song. Not alot there yet, I'm trying to find a less boring layout, but he's a guy so he doesn't know what he's doing in the respect. Haha. Anyway, I'm running really late. This habbit of blogging in the morning is nice though, it really clears my head for the day. Talk to you all later! Lots of love.

High of 75

Wouldn't it be nice if it was spring? Its like....winter is nice and all, but I'd love to wear some short sleeve shirts and be able to walk outside and smell the grass and the flowers under a bright blue sky with white fluffy clouds. It would be loverly. I don't know why I have spring fever so early. Its only early february. Didn't the groudhog say six weeks left? Hrumphhh.

Anyway, I'm gonna be stressed out the next few days so if I don't blog alot thats why. I have a playing test tomorrow and all county auditions and a whole lot of other stuff that I really don't want to do. Its what I get for the "over-involved" schedule I chose to take on. Silly, silly me.

We picked classes for next year today. I'm debating whether or not to take AP music theory....I'm already taking all my junior classes this year I might as well take a college course. hahaha.

Love you all! <3

bye.

Excuse me, but isn't this the way that things usually turn into something good?!

School today. I'm running late, which is a total plus to my obnoxious morning. All mornings are obnoxious I guess.

Guys are clueless. It just needs to be said.

I love relint k, their lyrics are total therapy.

I want all you have to offer, really. I just...I guess I'm just feeling kinda lonely. Who wouldn't? Its a thursday morning, I'm late, and I have two playing tests today. One for flute and one for pic. Its great, cause I have practiced either in a week. It would have been a really nice day for a flash flood or something, god. Thanks for the support.

Other aspects of life? ehhhh. I know I'm being vauge but I really don't want to make and issue out of this. I don't want to come across as jealous or anything, I'm not. Its still....alot to take in, I guess.

The best thing that could be happening...

...and i think you could agree the best thing is that its happening to you and me."


So I'm just sitting...listening...talking...listening...

Stories are fun. Stupid people are not. I hate stupid people. I am NOT a stupid person.
Anyway, I really don't have alot to say. I set out with alot to say and then I started being...reminded or thinking or something and it just went out the window.
So how's life?

if home is where the heart is

Okay so everybody say good luck jess.....I can't hear you yet......

Fine, be that way. In that case I'll just explain why it is i need good luck. See, today, I have gym. Bad enough, I hate gym and we're playing volleyball and thats one of those "can't really hide in the corner well" games, so participation tends to happen. A rare occurence for me in gym class. I've mastered the technique of making it look like I'm trying without actually trying. So my grades stay up and I don't look like an idiot. Everybody's happy, Right? Nope, because today, not only are we playing volleyball which probably means I have to participate and maybe even *gasp* serve...chris is coming. Chris happens to have sixth period and on free, so he's going to come to my gym. He's also the athletic type. So basically, I'm nervous. And I know I shouldn't be, cause really, he's gonna like me either way and I really can't possibly look that stupid...okay so maybe its possible I look stupid. But I just don't want to make some big scene, as I've been known to do in volleyball, in front of him. It just doesn't fit in with the whole "gotta be attractive" thing. Makes for some butterflies in the stomach. Big butterflies that can't play volleyball well either.

Me and people...its a love hate relationship.

Yup. Love hate. Hate love. Love then hate, then love again.
But right now I'm pretty happy. Very, actually.
The weird part is, I don't know why.

SuPerbowl

Yay football.
Okay, so in all honestly, I have no idea what's going on in the game. At all. But god forbid I say that in front of my diehard Giants fan of a grandpa. I have to sit in the right place with the right apparel and right comments at the right times. Its funny, though. Besides, I get to spend alot of time with my family (like the newly engaged oh-so-cute KT and Joe) and plenty of time texting my girls Christie and Chiara. And Chris in like twenty minutes.
Oh, chris. Can I possibly ask for a better guy? I think not.
ANyway, i should go back before Grandpa catches me not paying attention.



Oh...great.....my parents have just donned matching giants santa hats and my grandpa is yelling at my uncle for eating cookies. I can't wait to dive back in. I know you are all jealous.

Lots of love.

Cheery? I think not.

Sorry, and yes its over which is nice, but of course its not a totally drama free world and I can't be done with every issue in my flippin life. Anyway. I'm fine with you, however I'm not a happy person.
New issues, issues that have always been there, issues that'll never go away...I really don't know.
I can't even vent, I'm not sure what it is. Or who will read this.

:LOOU EWIC SOIEFD U
LSKDJF PWEIDGUS. JDUSIII KAMASCADO.

Yeah there ya go.

At least its all good with a few chance people, like chris. Anyway, maybe i'll write more later or maybe I won't.
Bye.

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