Sometimes The Hardest Thing and Right Thing Are The Same

Here's pegging this week as better then last week. Or the week before. But there, right there's part of the problem. The weight of comparing everything. You know how much mental energy is wasted on that? A lot. Just like judgement. We talked about that in Lit and Philosophy the other day, though I wish we'd spent more time on this specifically. We put so much weight on ourselves by judging right and wrong, good and bad. And not even in our own lives. In other people lives. "Oh, look at them. They're such a bad person." You know you think it. Maybe its because they're into drugs or because of how they dress or their sexual preference. They're weird. Its how they walk. I'm not on some campaign here for you to not judge. To accept everyone. As a person I'm not very open and loving, in all honesty. But I know, even in the most selfish of ways, it puts a lot of weight on my shoulders to put it on myself to judge everyone around me. Its not my place.

Now, how that fits into the things going on in my life right now, I really couldn't tell you. Its just something I've wanted to say that I haven't been able to say to anyone. So there you go, food for thought.

But do you know how hard it is to not judge people? Let's play devil's advocate for a second. (Disclosure: Spelling WILL be consistently incorrect. Get over it.) I know its easy to logically explain that everyone has a different story and there's no reason to judge people but its human instinct! Blah. Why is it so bad anyway? It doesn't have to be. It just can be.

So there's both sides, maybe unfairly balenced. Invested in the movie The Box. Its weird but it makes you think. Watch it with people you can talk to. And I hope you have a better week than you last one.

What color is your parachute?

Junior Year's in full swing now. But I can't complain. Compared to sophmore year, this is a wonderful, WONDERFUL year.
Yeah, of course I hate waking up before God does and showering, trying to motivate myself to look halfway decent, and walking into a stuffy old brick building with a number of people I can't stand... but it evens out.
Here's how.
-I'm taking AP Bio. I'm aware that for MOST people this doesn't "even out" anything, but I really really like biology. It makes SENSE, and it's (deep breath) FUN. I get it, I enjoy learning it... maybe THATs why I wanted to be a marine biologist!
-I have classes with Josh. :)
-The workload is large, but it's not busy work, and I've found methods that really help me make the most out of it. I actually benefit from homework. It's like this totally new concept. It's great.
-I got a car! Toyota Corolla (spelling? Psh. Genetic.) 2001. Debating between the names Eve and Cricket, she's dark green, and I can DRIVE her. I really do. On the road with cars and everything. And at night! I'm a big girl now. :)

See how that works? I'm okay with it.

What would you do-o-o for a klondike bar?

Really, though. What?

I can't imagine they're that high in demand, but maybe if you were really craving it, pregnant or something... Hah.

As of now, I'd quit school and start over on an unpopulated island in the Pacific for a Klondike bar.

Wait a minute, I'd do that for nothing. Vacation time, anyone?

Can you tell its September?

Things. There are so many things that have to be done. These things pile up all Summer but we wait until NOW to do them. And we all do it, some worse then others. Unless of course, you're all "on time" and "prepared" in which case... cut it out, you're making us look bad.
I'm off to church to play choir director. But once I'm home... there's AP Bio to do, and a room to clean, and laundry... Not to mention I need to do some serious fish tank cleaning. And I have to fix my laptop. It's necessary. But, somewhere I'm starting to feel.. okay with school. Gasp. It's been said. I decided to fall out of the classic stereotype, at least for these few minutes while my fingers are clicking over the keyboard, and say that I'm not dreading school! Structure and routine will be nice, at least for the first month or two, and besides it's really only the getting up early that sucks.

Oh, and my sim had a baby. :)

Don't Blame Me

Off to Pennsic shop soon...because I leave on Monday. Ah! That can't be right, can it? Impossible. There's still so much to do!

Anyway, this was supposed to be an angry rant but I don't really have time. I just would like to say, generally speaking, communications are obnoxious. Agreed? Excellent.

Anyway, today consists of Pennsic shopping, chiara coming over, maybe some other news that could be shared at a later date... fun stuff. And then tomorrow I have a bonfire to see all my friends before I take off for two weeks.
Hope everyone's day is at LEAST as mediocre as mine. :)

Freedom 2009

So it's summer! Yay! And I'm full of, well, potential plans. But potential plans are still plans right?
I got in touch with a long lost cousin last week, and that was awesome. :)
Also, I'm probably going to be getting a job. And (go ahead sisters, laugh) my permit.
And I'm going to Pennsic FOR TWO WEEKS AHHHHH.
And maybe even Washington, DC. Which would be fun. Plus I'm going to the Bronx Zoo and the Aquarium pretty soon...all fun things.

College is the scary thing. When did I get old enough to be looking at colleges? I know, it's like, a few months early for me and there's plenty of like graduates who don't even know what they want to do but that's not generally how I function and all of a sudden I'm filling up this folder with potential colleges and talking to my guidance consulor about not even coming in senior year...it's all very crazy. I don't wanna, I don't wanna!

..does that not work anymore? It used to work really well when I was like, two. I'm still cute I swear!

It's high time for the winds to change

So...tomorrow's the last day of finals. Woo-hoo! And then it's summer.
I was just looking back at the entry I wrote LAST year around now, and I wasn't so thrilled about Summer...so I'm hoping things change this time around. Anyway my outlook for tomorrow is to roll out of bed and into the shower and then get BACK into my PJs and head to school ridiculously early to take a dumb french final.
It won't really matter that I won't be awake because honestly it's in a different language anyway...and I certainly don't speak french! And then maybe I'll find it in me to wake up before the math final so that I can focus on all 34 stinkin questions. AND THEN I'M DONE.
THANK GOD.

Anyway...that's the plan... (rule the world...you and me...anyday...)
oops sorry. :)