To experience the bittersweet

Not that thrilled for today. I think I offically hate people. Well, most people. Because no one knows you but you and then when people think they know you they tell everyone else how well they think they know you....and people buy into it. I hate that it doesn't matter what they say, nothing I say can change the way people think. Nothing can change the way people interprept things, or the way people hurt other people. And I hate it cause theres no reason for all the conflict. The past is the past, and everyone has done some pretty stupid things, but does that make people stupid? No, what makes people stupid is when someone begs them to understand that the other people are not right in what they say, no matter who they are or what they're saying, and yet they still don't listen.

When's the last time any of you took the time to listen, to hear me out?
To understand.
I hate that its over, and I hate everything that I did do wrong, but I didn't do this.

Party Pics

Finally....

sorry they're late! It was lots of fun.



P.S. check out the picture of me and chris :)

I take it all back

All that happy. I take it all back. I just do. I hate high school.
But you know what, I don't! Thats it. I don't. I refuse to hate high school. Theres always going to be things. I told myself I was moving on, and I am. I'm ready to be happy and have fun and have a good life. I'm ready to stop disagreeing with how others handle their problems.

I'm ready to be a bridesmaid in kt's wedding in november.

I'm ready to bring my date, then of almost nine months, with me and introduce him as my boyfriend.

I'm ready to enjoy every minute of high school and not give a damn what other people thing about me.

And I'm ready to go through my life in the best way possible, embracing all the drama I can with a large grain of salt.

Goodnight, all. I'm not happy. I'm not sad. I'm perfectly....me.

"how much is too much to give you?..

...well I may never know so i'll give until theres nothing else."

~Relient K
I love them so much, you have no idea.

Anyway, I'd like everyone to know I'm offically happy. Yes, up and down and down and up, but for now I'm just perfectly content with everything. Good friends, always someone to talk to, perfect guy, very happy. :)
I went roller skating last night with the youths (my church youth group). It was awesome, I love my church people. I honestly don't know what I'd do without them. I mean, thats half of what church is for me. Take out the whole God thing and I still wouldn't be able to live without my church family just as a support group I guess. I love the quirks as much as I love their perfections. If you get the chance, look up "What I love about Sunday" by Craig Morgan. You'll get it.
Socially, life's going great. My issues with my friends are offically declared over...a huge relief. Water under the bridge, its nice to move on.
I stayed at Sandra's this weekend, and Michelle and Heather were there, along with mom later on. Yes, I should have seen it coming, but michelle and sandra badgered and wrestled me on the Chris things, until I kinda told some things about my new guy. But it was hilarious, them being all sisterly *cough mean cough* loving and everything.

Anyway, some TV to catch up on tonight and much chilling out to be done, so i'm gonna sign off for now. Much love and hugs.

Just A Quicky...

Not a post....so read the one below it! (by the way, theres text under this picture, so if you can't see it highlight it and you'll see it.

Wood type: birch Length: 10½ inches Core: Unicorn Hair get your own wand!

people have strange habbits, don't you think?

Okay, so, Meghan's party was awesome, lived up to the potential i talked about.
"That Guy" was there. Do I need to explain myself? I think not.

For the curious...

Am I single? Yeah...

Will it stay that way? Uhm, not likely.

Anyway, that party was amazing. I'd love to go back. Even with all the "whats his name (not the one i like, the one i went out with)" drama. But I'm not pointing fingers there. I'd love to elaborate, but i'll just post pictures later. I woke up sick this morning, so I'm dead tired and I still have math to do. :(

Sorry about the technical difficulties

We're back. :)

Today is meghan's party, which has the potential to be very fun.
Potential is the key word.

Anyway, theres this guy.......

...nuff said.

<3s and Hugs!